Boys

I think it's funny the way guys function. They really do always think with their dick first. I remember part of the reason why I broke up with Dave was because he had all these half-naked girls around all the time since he did car shows and whatever. After we broke up he started f'ing these two easy chicks and now he's all contacting me again. With Mark, he decided to go with the other girl because she spread her legs for him and ended up getting pregnant. He was all happy that he was getting laid, but now he's been constantly calling and texting me saying that he thinks he made the wrong decision and that he wished things were opposite of the way they are now. He used to never call before, but now he's even calling me from his work and everything. I think all of this proves that guys really don't know what they want even though they think they do. They got a good person there for them but they'll always take the easy route before realizing the more difficult route was the better one to begin with. Honestly, I do the same thing. I've been thinking about things so much lately and I came to the realization that I really take people for granted. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find exactly what I'm looking for. I think I've raised my standards way too high to the point that anyone who should typically be relationship material in my book instead becomes a meaningless hookup. My self-confidence is on the rise though. I feel so free to do whatever I want, but I definitely do miss having someone to talk to and spend my free time with. I can't stand this song because my sister overplays it, but Tierra Mari - Hunt 4 You definitely got my feelings on point.

- Monday
Worked with Terrence.

- Tuesday
Knocked the fuck out instead of going in for floorset.

- Wednesday
Busy, busy day for me. Rushed straight to work after school to help out with floorset for a few hours. New collection looks hot. I love the winter jacket and long-sleeve dress. Good thing about them were that they were a lot more expensive than the other things in the store, which means not a lot of people will buy them and I can be unique. I swear Brittany and I are the only ones who ever buy the more expensive clothes that come into the store. Went straight to Rancho again after floorset for the NHS Induction Ceremony. Rainy days are not cute at all.

- Friday
Didn't go to homecoming. Went to Cerritos for Wingstop with Amy, Katie, and Tam instead. Fries and ranch there are so bomb! Cute ass Jay Sean lookalike there made Wingstop that much better. There was a guy who was hella checking me out and not even trying to be subtle with it that I completely ignored because he looked like my ex Johnny. Haaa not cute at all. Definitely not going down that route again, so that was unfortunate for him. Freaking Katie was like "So is it completely over with T.I.? Like over over?" When I said yes she said "Aw, he was really cute too." Gee, thanks Katie. That really helps. Rushed to Regals to watch Stepfather. Lame and corny, don't waste your money on it. Snuck into Paranormal Activity for the second half. Amy's such a pussy. I think she had her hands over her eyes longer than it took her to drive from Cerritos back to Garden Grove. I found everyone's screams to be funny since I had already seen it. Katie and Amy were scared shitless afterwards. If there were no boring midday scenes and only freaky night scenes, I would totally watch that movie again and again. Went back to Katie's house for a bit then to my house. It was only 12 something in the morning and I knocked out on Amy. Sleep deprivation from the weekdays f'd me up.

- Saturday
Slept 'til 5. Worked closing shift with Terrence and hit $5,000. Terrence was saying that he thought I had a crush on him. Lol, I was in disbelief that someone could be that confident in themselves. I've been there since July. Trust, if I wanted him, he would've known and you guys would've known too. He really thought I liked him and I didn't know what to say that wouldn't hurt his feelings, so I just rolled with "I like 5'10 and up, sorry" knowing full well Terrence is like six inches shorter than my requirement. He said "I still could've gotten you, it would've just taken time." I told him it'd take years and left it at that. Amy and Frank came in. Amy missed me that much. Yeah, we really need boyfriends.

- Sunday
Dropped my laptop off at Amy's, then went to work at 5, which was earlier than I was supposed to because Brianna went on her break and never came back or called the store to let the girls working know what was going on. We were all worried thinking she got kidnapped or something but she called five hours later to say that she left because her mom and aunt got in an argument. Who does that? No one. There's gotta be something more to the story. This cute black guy was telling me I was sexy and I was so gonna hit on him when these six Mexican guys started hitting on me instead. What the hell! Cockblockers! I'm sad now. It's okay though, I'm #1 for the week again. Too bad I didn't get any hmwk done though. Fuck meee. Speaking of fuck me, I remember Amy's conversation with her boy Ryan. It went a little something like this.

Ryan: I like girls that can ride.
Amy: Oh... sorry.

I got one word. Sad. LOL.

Paranormal Activity

- Yesterday
Had a good work day. Angels beat Red Sox! They're currently up 2-0 in the ALDS. Saw the people Terrence and Eddie have been interviewing. Oh em effing gee is all I have to say. What happened to their standards!?!? Our current associates are all good-looking and outgoing. None of the girls I've met are even the least bit cute or have somewhat of a personality. Whatever, they'll just make me look even better. There's this guy I met last Friday who asked for my number and I was too nice to say no so I gave him the store number thinking he'd get the hint. He actually called the store so many times over the week that my boss told me to tell the person who kept calling me to stop. He came in and I freaking accidentally told him I got off at 9. At exactly 9 he waited outside the store with two of his friends and it was so awkward because I stalled inside the store for 30mins and my boss and coworker were all looking at him and laughing. Finally I went outside and just said that I got back with my psycho ex on Wednesday and that if I gave him my number he'd die. I don't think he believed it though but whatever. I need a big crazy boyfriend now so I can just tell the guys who hit on me that and not have to worry about getting caught up in my lie. See Kelly? Don't worry about your situation because if what that guy said was true, I'd be able to request a restraining order on that one stalker guy. I'm loving my job but it's making me fall so far behind in school right now. Told myself I'd study for the SATs but I was so tired that I knocked out in my Ecko dress, makeup, curly hair, hoop earrings and bracelets, and contacts. I hadn't even eaten anything all day besides Ramen at 6:30am and a few scoops of ice cream at lunch, but I just went to sleep and didn't eat the McDonalds meal I bought. I'm a failure, I know.

- Today
SATs was ridiculous. I don't understand why Rancho had to check admission tickets one by one. It wasn't so bad though, except I had four math sections and math's my worst subject. Went home, freshened up, then met Chris at the Block. I like how my dad saw him walking up to me but didn't even trip 'cause Chris is black. If he had been Asian, I wouldn't have fingers to type this right now. We went to watch Paranormal Activity. It wasn't that scary for me because the scariest parts were on the trailer and I knew ahead of time that it wasn't real. If I hadn't known all that I would've definitely been scared shitless. The last part was really scary though. I think when I'm up alone late at night and hear the smallest noises I'll get freaked out though. Chris thought it was real and his heart was beating hella fast. Pansy. Stopped by my work afterwards and Brittany told me that she was at a Long Beach gas station yesterday with no makeup, baggy sweats, and long t-shirt on and when she was getting into her car a black guy opened her door and tried to pull her out. She was holding on to her steering wheel and she screamed at the Asian cashier man to help her but he looked away, so she bit the black guy and he let go and called her a fucking bitch and it was weird 'cause I totally pictured an old ugly dude but she said the guy that tried to kidnap her was good-looking and in his 20s. Freaking crazy! If he's cute and wants to get it on that badly he could've just called me up. Jk. Went to eat Thai food in Anaheim and stopped by Katie's house. Her sister's boyfriend was telling my dad that I deserved a Beemer because I'm pretty and smart but haaa, I'll keep dreaming on. All-nighter now. Morning shift tomorrow. Fuck my life once again.

Twitter

Daaang haven't blogged in so long! Not like that's anything new. I'll try to go back and update whenever I'm not too lazy, but basically I've been really occupied with school and work. College applications are about to be thrown in the mix too. I keep up with my Twitter though, so let's stick with that for now.

www.Twitter.com/TripseeyCindy

Swamped

I. Am. So. Tired. I was supposed to take my daily nap but didn't because Terrence needed me to come in and close with him. I met this man who I seriously thought was gay, but he had a decent looking Asian girlfriend that he met on eHarmony. How weird! I really wanna try eHarmony just because I'm so sure that I won't be able to find someone and I can tell the whole world dating sites don't really work. I don't think the best dating site in the whole world could help me out. The amazing guys, the ones who can stimulate my mind and keep my interest, are unavailable, so there's really no hope out there. Mimi asked me the other day if I still missed ****. I said yes, and she was really surprised because I haven't mentioned him at all for the last couple months. I compare a lot of guys I meet to him and realize that I shouldn't have taken things for granted. Anyways. Moving on. It was so dead tonight. There was a point where our goal was $1,440 and we had $1,424 in. All we needed was $16 to make plan, but we were freaking out because no one was coming into the store at all. Luckily a guy came in and got a $40 jacket right before we closed the doors, so we made plan and LY after all. I have a bunch of homework to get to. If I didn't love my coworkers and what I do so much, I definitely would have quit a long time ago because my mind and body just aren't cut out for this schedule.

Sleep Deprived

Promised my parents I'd actually wake up early to go eat with them, so I was up at 8 on a Sunday that I had off. Went to Fry's after breakfast and was on our way to whatever our next destination was going to be when Brianna called and asked me to cover for her since she had had a rough night. Luckily I had decided to throw on an Ecko tank in the morning or else I would've had to go all the way home to change and then go all the way back to my work. I was glad to trade shifts since I didn't want to close tomorrow, but what sucked was that I had left all my homework for today since I wasn't scheduled to work yesterday or today. Super busy for the majority of the time. I love working with Brittany, Davina, and Liz. We have so much fun and make hella bank whenever we're together. We've made plan and LY, beaten our forecast for the week, and had over $50 DPTs both yesterday and today. That's crazy good, especially considering that Eddie and Terrence had the whole weekend off. Don't know if I blogged about it yet, but the man that came in last time asking me to be his girlfriend came in again today. My blood curled when I saw him. It was so weird. He kept asking me if I remembered him and I pretended like I didn't, so he left since there were a lot of people in the store. He came back an hour later when there wasn't a single customer in the store and my managers were in the back and seemed really offended that I didn't remember him. I said that I saw a lot of faces and couldn't remember everyone, even though I'm actually really good with faces. Instead of asking "Will you be my girlfriend?" he basically told me to be 'cause he said "So what do you say? Be my girlfriend." It was so disgusting. Usually I'm really nice and play it off so that their feelings won't get hurt, but it pissed me off that he thought he was so hot and worthy enough of me. It was insulting actually, so I said "Look, this is a retail store. You can't just come in here trying to get my number. I'm trying to sell, not get hit on" so he said "Okay thank you" and walked out. It was creepy 'cause I found out that the reason why he was able to catch me when there was absolutely no one else in the store was because he has been standing outside the entire hour. Ew I'm so disgusted right now. Aside from that the night went well. Hooked Brittany up with this guy who came into the store that she was too shy to hit on. She said she didn't like his mouth, but I said no worries since she won't be able to see his mouth when he's hitting it from the back. She asked me what kind of grades I got, and when I told her I actually did pretty well in school she said she would've never guessed. She refused to believe me when she asked me what rank I was and I said 4th. Apparently I can't be smart with the way I look and talk. Speaking of school, I really really really need to do homework. F it, I'll just wake up at 3am to do it 'cause I can barely even keep my eyes open to finish this blog.

Hello I'll blog when I'm not so damn tired all the time