Went to this Tom guy's house to get my phone fixed. The dude barely graduated from Rancho and he's already making bank. He makes so much money just fixing iPhones alone, and on top of that, he owns four businesses. Shining example of a rich dude with the misfortune of being unattractive. My aunt picked me up and took me to my mom's shop. There was this black lady there and I was telling her white friend how I like black guys but they don't seem to like Asians too much, and the black lady wanted to hook me up with one of her sons lol! The only thing is that her sons are 19 and 21, so she was like "Wait until you're 18." I just wanted to tell her not to worry about the whole underage thing, but my mom was standing right there and (big)cockblocking me. Went to some new Vietnamese restaurant afterwards. Was supposed to go bowling with the coworkers tonight, but Eddie moved it to Sunday or Monday. Terrence actually called me earlier and asked if he could give my number to the girl he likes' brother. Thank you, Terrence, for not cockblocking anymore.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Pretty Nails
Thank God for DMV appointments. I skipped the line wrapped around the Santa Ana building, got my number, and my ass barely made contact with the waiting chair when I was called to a window. I thought that renewing my permit would just mean that I had to pay the fee again, but I had to take a picture and retake the written test. The first time I was at the DMV, I knew I had to take a picture, so I literally combed my hair every two minutes while I was in line. My hair ended up being messed up in the picture, lmao! This time, I didn't even know I would be taking a picture, but my hair ended up looking perfect. Ironic. The last time I read the handbook was over a year ago, but the test was basically common sense and I only missed 5 questions even though I got through it in under ten minutes. There was this Hispanic lady who had been there for almost an hour and missed 19. Um, 90% of those questions are common sense. Just pick the damn answer that talks about safety. Not hard. Went to my mom's shop afterwards and got my nails done and bangs cut. Spent the rest of the night watching this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7s2Ik-9AwA&feature=player_embedded#movie_player.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Transcript Of Life
Imagine if all your words for the past 24 hrs had been recorded and turned into a transcript. How would it read? Would there be more life than death? Would it include words filled with life that build others up? How much of it would contain grumbling, complaining or even name-calling? Remember. What comes out of your mouth reveals who you really are. Focus on speaking words of life and blessing! If you change your words, you'll change your life. - Joyce Meyers
I got this from Minh (www.NguMinh.Blogspot.com) and loved it so much that I wanted to repost it as a means of inspiration. It's sad because I realize the things I say are usually negative and full of antagonism. From this point on, I'm going to try to turn it around, follow this lady's advice, and speak mainly words of positivity. Thai food and Wal-Mart. I love lazy days.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Idiot Of The Year
Mark just called to tell me he accidentally got his other main girl pregnant... Lmao! She's keeping it, she says she's falling in love with him, he has to start a relationship with her so he doesn't have to pay child support, he has to hide it from his baby mama so he doesn't have to pay her child support, he wants me to still talk to him, he doesn't want me to be mad. Who said I'm gonna be mad? I have the biggest urge to laugh as I'm typing this. A dude with a shitty car who doesn't know how to pull out having to take care of two kids at the age of 23. Out of all the girls a guy might be juggling at one time, why am I always the smart one?
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Big Sales
- Yesterday
Woke up early on a Saturday morning to hang out with Mark. Stopped by my store at the Block first to buy a hoodie dress to wear later on in the day, then Mark picked me up from there. Went to his house to meet his roommates and chill, then drove to Anaheim to get Panda Express. Everywhere I go with Mark, people stare like crazy. I thought it was because we're of different races, but when I mentioned it to him, he said "It's 'cause I'm good-looking and you're good-looking." Told you he's cocky. Got to work at 3 and immediately had rushes. I got at least 10 $150+ sales, and Terrence pulled me aside for a private talk to let me know that the managers had a talk and wanted to make me a permanent. Yay. I was in such a good mood at work, especially since Terrence wasn't moping around about his ex-girlfriend anymore. He actually met a Filipino girl he really liked from Fresno, and she came in later on in the day with a few of her friends, her brother, and her cousin. Damn, her brother and cousin were so fine, and both were rocking a V-neck too. I was checking out her cousin at first because he's taller and was wearing a cap, but after they left, the brother texted Terrence and told him to give me his number. I couldn't remember what the brother looked like, but they came back an hour later and I realized the brother was actually the cuter one. They walked outside and I was staring at him from inside the store, thinking he couldn't see me, but then he looked up out of nowhere, saw me, and smiled 'cause he saw me looking. So embarrassing; he called Terrence out just to tell him he caught me red-handed. Terrence is always a cockblocker towards me though. Whenever I tell him to hook me up with someone, he refuses. I told him to give me the brother's number so I could text him, and he didn't even want to give it to me. Still waiting on it. I was supposed to get off at 8, but John wanted to clock out early so he could make it to his party so I decided to be nice and stay until 11:30. Mark came by at 8 though, so I hung out with him and a couple of his friends for a while, then I went to go buy my iPhone from this one dude and bought a case for it too. Missed my cousin's party in order to close the store, but overall, good day at work.
- Today
Woke up early on a Saturday morning to hang out with Mark. Stopped by my store at the Block first to buy a hoodie dress to wear later on in the day, then Mark picked me up from there. Went to his house to meet his roommates and chill, then drove to Anaheim to get Panda Express. Everywhere I go with Mark, people stare like crazy. I thought it was because we're of different races, but when I mentioned it to him, he said "It's 'cause I'm good-looking and you're good-looking." Told you he's cocky. Got to work at 3 and immediately had rushes. I got at least 10 $150+ sales, and Terrence pulled me aside for a private talk to let me know that the managers had a talk and wanted to make me a permanent. Yay. I was in such a good mood at work, especially since Terrence wasn't moping around about his ex-girlfriend anymore. He actually met a Filipino girl he really liked from Fresno, and she came in later on in the day with a few of her friends, her brother, and her cousin. Damn, her brother and cousin were so fine, and both were rocking a V-neck too. I was checking out her cousin at first because he's taller and was wearing a cap, but after they left, the brother texted Terrence and told him to give me his number. I couldn't remember what the brother looked like, but they came back an hour later and I realized the brother was actually the cuter one. They walked outside and I was staring at him from inside the store, thinking he couldn't see me, but then he looked up out of nowhere, saw me, and smiled 'cause he saw me looking. So embarrassing; he called Terrence out just to tell him he caught me red-handed. Terrence is always a cockblocker towards me though. Whenever I tell him to hook me up with someone, he refuses. I told him to give me the brother's number so I could text him, and he didn't even want to give it to me. Still waiting on it. I was supposed to get off at 8, but John wanted to clock out early so he could make it to his party so I decided to be nice and stay until 11:30. Mark came by at 8 though, so I hung out with him and a couple of his friends for a while, then I went to go buy my iPhone from this one dude and bought a case for it too. Missed my cousin's party in order to close the store, but overall, good day at work.
- Today
Started work at 1. Our DPT, Dollars Per Transaction, was $33 when I came in, which is crazy horrible since company standard is $50. Brittany was in a bad mood since the numbers were so low, but right off the bat I got these four Mexican guys to buy a lot and they ended up buying $233 worth of stuff, which raised our DPT up to $49. It pretty much stayed there throughout the rest of my shift, but around 5 a skinny, nerdy-looking guy came in and started telling me that he was really attracted to me and whatever. He asked for my number, and when I pretended that I didn't have a phone, he said "I can buy one for you. I have a lot of phones" and proceeded to take three phones out from his pockets. I decided to play it to my advantage and pulled down a bunch of stuff, and everything I suggested, he bought. When I rang him up, I said "You're easy when it comes to clothes huh? You just get everything without even trying it on." He said "It's easy when you're not on a budget." He ended up buying $407 worth of clothes, and when he paid, he gave me five $100 bills. Wtf right? Then he started telling me that he wanted to take me out to dinner and take me places to shop. Tempting to accept, but the only thing is I don't want to feel like I'm obligated to him or anything just because he's spending money on me. I took his number just in case I change my mind though hehe. I even gave him a hug. He deserved one for helping me raise my DPT to $58, and the managers kept telling me "Good job Cindy." A while later this other dude came in and I totally didn't expect him to hit on me just because he seemed like a dad and husband, but he was saying that he loved Asian girls and he freaking started begging for my number. I came up with every lie and excuse possible... I have a boyfriend, I don't have a phone, I'm not allowed to call customers, my manager's right there, I'm underage. I asked him how old he was, expecting him to say he was at least 40, but he thinks about it for two seconds before saying "I'm 33." Right... That's like saying Kanye West doesn't have a big ego. When I said I had a boyfriend, he told me to take his number in case we ever break up. When I said I didn't have a phone, he told me to go to a public phone or use a friend's. When I said I was underage, he told me we could just be friends and that he'd wait until February for me. Dude, do you seriously believe someone like me would be attracted to someone like you? You wear size 42 pants for goodness sake. Then he started telling me that he had a good job and a new car and a lot of money. I looked down at what he was holding in his hands. A $19.99 pair of shorts. Even if he was hot, just the fact that he made my $58 DPT drop to a $49 was enough for me to reject him. I got off at 6 and went to get Wetzel's Pretzels, and as I was leaving, the size 42 guy saw me and started calling after me and following me. I've never walked so quickly to the parking lot as I did in my desperate attempt to escape him. Went to Kathleen's house to chill, eat, and eventually take a nap. No work tomorrow. Wish I could have a complete lazy day, but I need to go somewhere to get my iPhone unlocked. Oh, and Terrence is really frustrating me by the way. He never gave me that Filipino guy's number, and it's not like I was even the one who asked him for it. That guy was the one who wanted me to text him. Ugh, doesn't he know how hard it is to find a nice and really cute Filipino guy around here who isn't associated with StarFam or whatever and doesn't know annoying O.C. bitches? Practically mission impossible.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Weekend Girl
Made plans to hang out with Mark, but he ended up being in the studio all day. Ugh, "musicians." It was funny though 'cause I gave him so much shit the other night when I asked him when the last time he had sex was, and his response was Saturday. I was like, "Umm, isn't that the day after you hung out with me? I called you but you didn't pick up 'cause you were supposedly in Pomona." He replied, "Well, you wouldn't give me some so I had to." I like that he sees me as his main girl but he's getting frustrated that I'm the only one who won't spread my legs for him. It makes things fun. I have the upper hand now, and he needs to know that I'm not one of his little weekend girls who he can call up to fuck. Thai food, DUI/Driver's License checkpoint, and the Block in the evening. Checked my schedule; work's pissing me off. Some associate manager is transferring over, which means 40 hours for her and less hours for the rest of us. Fucking asshole should've stayed where she was.
These Will Eventually Stop
Dang, I haven't blogged in over 3 weeks. Another huge recap blog coming up. Whenever I get home, all I want to do is check my accounts, watch some TV, and fall asleep. I always wake up at 4 in the morning because I fall asleep without brushing my teeth and washing off my makeup, so I get up out of nowhere to do that and then sleep for a few more hours. With Amy at camp, there's no more blogs to read lmao. Everyone needs to blog more, especially me.
- Sunday, July 19th
Worked from 2 to 6. Met John, the "really good-looking guy" Terrence was telling me about my first day on the job. He looks almost exactly like J. Holiday, but he's convinced me into thinking that he's even cuter than J. Holiday. I don't know what it is that attracts me to him so much. I don't think the 74 girls he's fucked and every other girl he's ever been able to lay game on know what it is that makes him so attractive either. His green eyes are a given, but still, he's nowhere close to my type. He's 5'6, skinny, and has braids... completely opposite from my preference of 5'10 to 6', built, and buzzed. Got off at 7 and went over to my cousin's house, where my sister, Amy, Kathleen, Katie, and Christy all were. John called and told me to come over to his place for a barbecue he was having later on that night, and Amy and my sister wanted to go since there were black guys there. Little did we know that John's phone was fucked up and he couldn't receive calls, so he didn't know that we called him to get the directions. We ended up going to Guppy's to get popcorn chicken instead. We were at the counter making our order and checking out the fine ass black waiter when Amy tells me that one of my exes, Johnny, was standing outside. I didn't see him because she said he was right outside the door, so I looked at the people standing right near the door, but he was actually behind all those people. We got our food and were leaving when I decided to go back and ask him about my iPod, which he originally broke and supposedly bought a new one but never gave it to me. The first thing he said when I walked up to him was "Don't make a scene," as if he already expected me to come up to him all this time. The first thing that ran through my mind when I saw him for the first time in two years? Damn the nigga is ugly! Wtf happened to him? Red fauxhawk with a red tail? And as if he wasn't already skinny enough two years ago, he got even skinnier to the point that his teeth jump out from his sucked-in face. I even asked Mimi later, "Was he that ugly when I was dating him?" and she said "No, because I thought he was okay and we had the same taste back then." I know I'm digressing, but I've noticed that guys I date always get really ugly after we break up. Alamitos and Rancho people, remember Ali Ytares? He used to get girls and be all cleaned up... then at Rancho his hair grew and looked all nappy and he walked around in sweats all day. Tony, granted he was already pretty ugly, got even uglier after we broke up with his faggotass hairdos. Johnny, no further explanation needed here. Anyways, back to the story. I actually didn't make a scene, which surprised Amy and Mimi. "You know, I actually thought you were gonna make a scene." Since when did I become a drama queen? Lmao. I only wanted to make a scene to get the black waiter and the Filipino guys' attention. I can tell Johnny was afraid I'd say shit he didn't want me to say in front of his girlfriend, so he was like "I'll give it to you" blah blah blah, but of course, he hasn't yet. Same shit, different toilet every time with him. I could have let his girlfriend know that according to him, she's boring in bed, but a packed Guppy's wasn't really the time and place for that. Went back to Amy's house, where we were talking about her problems with this Ryan guy she likes. Funny incident that I wanna blog about so I can laugh about it when I read this years from now. She was anxious that Ryan hadn't texted her all day because she assumed that he was out fucking his ex-girlfriend. While we were talking, Mimi started playing with Amy's phone, then gave it back to her. Out of nowhere, Amy's phone received a text, and Amy literally jumped out of her seat and said "Omg, he just texted me!" Sad... I know. She started reading it and it said "I love you" and then Mimi started laughing really hard because she had changed her name to Ryan Matthews in Amy's phonebook. We realized what happened and couldn't stop laughing for the longest time. Good night for us, bad night for Amy, long single-day blog for me.
- Monday, July 20th
Asian Mall, went to eat with family, chilled at Kathleen's.
- Tuesday, July 21st
Got macaroni balls at Cheesecake Factory with Stephan, the manager of the place where Ronald works. He's so nice and was talking about all these places he wanted to take me to eat at, which was really tempting for my fat ass, but I didn't want to lead him on. Even though he has money, I can't date someone who's not my type unless he was rich to the point that he's dropping money to buy things for me, not just take me out. Worked closing shift. A 29 year old Sri Lankan guy wanted to take me out on a date because he thought I was 22, but thankfully, I'm only a minor. Being 17 sucks in the sense that I can't go clubbing and I scare off older guys, but when it comes to people like that Sri Lankan dude, 17's the perfect age.
- Wednesday, July 22nd
Woke up early to go to L.A. Went to Chinatown, one of my most favorite places to go. Yeah, it's smelly and dirty and has perverts and grumpy Chinese people, but aside from those downfalls, it's fun for someone who loves buying random things. I was in such a good mood that I walked into a restaurant and said "Hello" out of nowhere, and the old people in there actually said "Hi" back! It was so cute, and when I was walking, a lady was about to get in her car and I was about to cross her path, so I stopped and let her go first. She was like, "No, you go" and I was like, "No, you can go" and she said "Oh, thank you honey! Thank you!" People like that make my freaking week. How many times have you met someone who was that thankful for something so minor? Off to USC we went, or so we thought. Amy got off the wrong exit, so I ran into a Goodwill to get directions. I asked the cashier, then three random people jumped in to help me. They all worked together and gave me the right directions, which made my freaking week too. USC was super nice at first, but then I came to despise it when it got really hot and the last thing I wanted to do was see one meaningless building after the next. Unless it had A/C, I did not want to see any more meaningless buildings whatsoever. There were people from the Bay Area, Chicago, and St. Louis on the same tour with us. I can't believe I'm competing against crazy people who are willing to travel hundreds and thousands of miles to see a college for an hour.
- Friday, July 24th
Got Thai food and went shopping. John was working; I couldn't keep my eyes off his eyes, he said he couldn't keep his eyes off my lips. A black guy saying I have nice lips? I'm gonna remember that compliment forever. I was planning to sleep early when I got home, but John called to tell me about how our boss, Eddie, had pulled him and Terrence aside to have a talk with them. Basically, he told them not to go any farther than just being friends with me because I was 17 and still underage and they could get into serious shit if they did. I didn't understand why he would tell them that and why he would single me out, considering there's another cute 17 year old girl who works there as well. Barely a week at work, and I already have the boss keeping a watchful eye on me.
- Saturday, July 25th
Worked morning shift. I was alone in the store when this tall, cute guy walked in, went right past me without acknowledging me, and grabbed a polo and went to the register. Usually people walk in really slowly and give me a chance to talk to them, but he made a beeline past me, which I especially wasn't used to since he was a guy. I still thought he was hot, so I went in the back and told Brittany to come out to check him out. She nodded in approval, and I was just talking to him when I blurted out "You're cute" out of nowhere. I don't even know where my balls came from, but luckily he asked for my number or else I would've felt like an idiot. I was off at 3 and went to Pasta Bravo with John. We kicked it for a couple hours before it was his time to work, then I did some shopping before going for Thai food and more shopping when my mom got home.
- Sunday, July 26th
Morning shift again. The only thing that made waking up at 7:30 worth it was that my third customers for the day was a black girl and black guy. He was getting a shirt and took off the one he was wearing to try it on, and damn, he had such a nice body. I was afraid to look though because I thought the girl was his girlfriend and I didn't want a black girl coming after me. They were in such a rush that I asked them why they had to hurry for. The girl, who seemed pretty innocent because I suggested a revealing top but she chose a T-shirt that covered up everything, said she had to get to an awards thing in Hollywood later that night. I said "Oh, are you a celebrity or something?" and she started blushing and giggling and whispered "It's a porn thing." I was like "...What?" and she said "It's kind of like AVN, but for black people," so I asked her what she was nominated for, and she said "Best Group Sex." I was about to say "What... the... fuck..." but I acted all cool 'cause I didn't wanna come off as the Asian girl who's too prude to engage in group sex, so I said "Oh foreal? How many people?" and she said "Three girls, two guys" so I said "Why's it gotta be more girls than guys all the time?" and she laughed and said "I know right? That's what I said too." I asked if the guy she was with was part of it, but she said he was just her date to the awards. Damn it, I should've stared at his body more. Lol! She started trusting me so much that she started talking about how she had to shoot a crazy scene the day before and that some people had some disgusting fetishes. I said "You mean bondage and stuff?" and she said "No, like farting and stuff. I had to sit and fart on girls' faces and they would do the same to me" and I asked how she was able to fart so much and she said "Well, they pump up our asses with air." Lmao... don't ask. Went to a barbecue at my cousin's house after work. I was telling my aunt and sister the story, except I said "So I say 'Are you a celebrity or something?' and she goes 'Girl, you don't know who I am? I'm Ashanti!'" and my aunt and sister's jaws dropped, and when I was telling my cousin the story, I said it was Janet Jackson, and she started freaking out. Really guys? Ashanti and Janet Jackson at the Block? Knee-slapper.
- Monday, July 27th
I was being a stalker and checking Mike's myspace when I noticed that he changed his status from In A Relationship to Married. Immediately suspected that he was back with Alvin and the Chipmunks. Just wanted to mention that since it'll be relevant later. Went to the DMV in Santa Ana but didn't accomplish anything. Arrived early for the mandatory meeting at work and chilled with John and Terrence for a bit. The meeting began at 9:30 and didn't end until 12:38am. We did a role-playing thing to see how easy it was for people to steal from us. Even with two of the managers closely watching me, I was able to slip a shirt under my top. If I could do it, anyone could have done it.
- Tuesday, July 28th
Volunteered at Quakers for a few hours in the morning. Mark, the guy that asked for my number on Saturday, was lagging on taking me out, so I stuck around for a game of History Bingo with the Alzheimer's patients. When I left, one of the ladies I was helping called me over to give me a hug. So cute right? Mark scooped me up later on in the afternoon and we were cruising around, not knowing where to go. He took me to some random place in Newport Beach and we walked along the path lined by pretty beach houses. People piss me off though; when we first kissed, some white preppy bitches on bikes rang a bell and laughed, and the second time we kissed, one of the Asian nerds who were biking by said "Whoa, whoa, getting freaky on the boardwalk!" Dude, get a life and get laid. Have you never seen people kiss before? Completely killed the moment for me, but whatever. Mark's a cool guy and he's chill and he's 6'1 and really good-looking and everything, but I think his cons outweigh his pros. He has a kid and a jealous baby mama, he talks too much about shit I don't care about, he doesn't show more interest when I talk about things in my life, he's cocky, he's one of those rapper guys who claim that people like Hot Dolla likes his shit, he's completely convinced he's gonna get in my pants, and worst of all... he has a shitty car. I could get over every single one of his cons, even that he's one of those rapper dudes, but I can't get over him having a shitty car. Mimi likes to ask who I'm talking to on the phone, and if I say Mark, she'll say "Which one? The one with the shitty car?" He's no longer Tall, Cute Mark. He's Mark With The Shitty Car.
- Wednesday, July 29th
I didn't do shit the entire day and didn't shower until 5:10, thinking that my shift didn't start until 7:30. I got out of the shower at 5:45, and Brittany calls and goes, "You know you're scheduled at 5:30 right?" Turns out I got my schedule mixed up with Sunday. Anyone who knows me knows I take forever and a day to get ready, so I told her the earliest I could be there was 6:45. I literally did half my makeup in the car and got to work at 6:15. Amazing? I would call it so.
- Friday, July 31st
Got Thai food again, went shopping, got a cute black dress that I love, stopped by Huntington Beach, and got Yogurtland.
- Saturday, August 1st
Busy day at work. The cutest little boy ever wanted to give me a kiss on the cheek. I can still remember his smile now; he's so cute! He didn't even want to leave. If I could get away with kidnapping, he'd be my pick. Thai food and Anaheim Plaza afterwards.
- Sunday, August 2nd
Katie's birthday dinner at Favori. Only thing good at the so-called "Best Vietnamese Restaurant in Orange County" according to the Orange County Register was their eggrolls. Almost a $400 tab, but my parents' fried rice > Favori's fried rice any day. I bet the person who wrote that review is screwing the restaurant owner.
- Monday, August 3rd
Doctor's, pharmacy, Thai food for the third day in a row, Kathleen's house, watched a horny Mexican couple maul each other outside the girl's house, Costco.
- Tuesday, August 4th
Worked a dead closing shift. Didn't even make $900.
- Wednesday, August 5th
Katie's house for her birthday barbecue. Her mom gave me two boxes of fake eyelashes, which in Vietnam is 20 pairs for $4, so each pair is $.20. Here in Orange County, I buy a pair for $2.79. I go all the way to Chinatown to get them for $1.00 or $1.50. If you are reading this and you're going to Vietnam anytime soon, let me know so I can give you money to buy me boxes of things from there. Thanks.
- Thursday, August 6th
Another mandatory meeting at work. It was supposed to only be 30 minutes long so we could have time to go bowling, but we didn't get out until 10:45. When we got to The Concourse, we went inside and were standing in front of the counter trying to decide which of the managers was going to pay for all of us. The very fat, tall, white guy working there goes "We're not giving out anymore lanes." We were kind of offended because we hadn't even said anything. For all he knows, we could have been there for the bar, but we went outside anyways. Two minutes later, a group with only white and Mexican people go up to the counter, and the dude gives them a lane! We all went back inside, but John walked faster than all of us and went right up to the guy. Immediately the guy tells John to back the fuck off like he wanted to start a fight or something, but John was just asking the guy why he gave them a lane and didn't give us one. He didn't answer John's question but kept telling him to back off before he started something, and I guess the word "Nigger" slipped out of his mouth. John was about to throw a punch but Terrence pulled him back. What would John's fist have hit though? The guy was more than two heads taller than John. No way he could have reached his face, and his fist would have bounced off the guy's stomach. Damn you Terrence. I really wanted to see that punch. We went outside and Eddie arrived right when the fat guy came out and said "Get the fuck out of here. There's a sidewalk over there, you guys can go there, but this is private property so get the fuck off." Eddie asked to speak to the manager, and the fat guy said with a smirk, "Go ahead," not knowing how good Eddie is with words. Eddie got us free games for our next meeting, and the fat guy is at risk for termination. Anyways, we went to Denny's and talked for the longest time. I didn't get back until 1:15am, and yes, my mom was pissed.
- Friday, August 7th
Fucking Twitter was fucked up at this time and deleted my updates for the day. I had to think so hard just to remember what I did. Mark picked me up to kick it for a bit. We stopped by his friend's house, then I said I was thirsty, so he took me to a liquor and got me Arizona. Really? When I say I'm thirsty, I'm used to guys taking me to Starbucks or Jamba Juice or BJ's or Cheesecake Factory so I can get my damn Coffee Frappacino or Caribbean Passion or Strawberry Lemonade. Arizona...? And it didn't even have my flavor? Another con for you, buddy. Then he took me back to his house, completely expecting to get in my pants, but I told him I wasn't going in and made him chill in the car. I just hate how he's so cocky and sure he's gonna get some. He tells me I'm different and that he's really feeling me in a way he's not feeling his other girls, yet he treats me like I'm one of them. When we first started texting each other after we met, he was concerned about me being underage and said he didn't wanna risk getting in trouble. I said, "You can't get in trouble unless we actually have intercourse" and he said "Who says we're not gonna get that far?" and I said "I did..." and he's all "Well, I say we will get that far, and whenever I say that, it happens." When we first talked on the phone, I was talking about how random it was that I told him he was cute, and he goes, "You thought about sexing me, didn't you?" Umm, yeah. Because whenever I lay my eyes on someone cute, the first thing that pops in my head is the image of us buck naked and humping on a kitchen counter. Right. Makes me more determined to never let him get any. Worked the afternoon shift, then went shopping with Mimi and Kathleen.
- Saturday, August 8th
I was working close and got to work a little earlier than usual, so I went to the back and was sitting at the desk when John came in. He kept going into the men's stockroom, which is a room adjacent to the back that has no cameras. I thought I heard him call my name, but I wasn't sure, so I stayed where I was. He poked his head out and said he needed me in the stockroom, so as I was walking in, he pulled me and started kissing me. We've never kissed before, and I'll admit he's a really good kisser, but we were at work and Terrence and Janae were still in the front. I was paranoid that Terrence would walk in, so I pulled away, but he pulled me back and kept kissing me, saying "Relax. There's no cameras here." I finally got away and went back to the desk, and John came and stood over me with his back to the camera. While he was on the phone with his baby mama, he reached in and touched my inner thigh. I was so pissed because for one thing, my ass is on the line while his isn't. He's leaving at the end of August to go back to North Carolina to take care of his daughter. I'm staying, I'm the newest employee there, I'm technically a seasonal, the managers still have to decide if they wanna keep me as a permanent, and Eddie's already on my ass because he thinks the guys wanna get with me. I went out front to work and John was supposed to go home, but he decided to stay and close even though he wouldn't get paid. I don't know why he did it; supposedly Terrence dared him to do it, but John went up to these three girls standing outside and started running his game on them. They completely fell for it; one of them wanted him, but he was trying to get her friend's number, so she was all "Yeah, I'm making sure she calls you." I started giving him an attitude, and of course John and Terrence took my attitude as a sign of jealousy. No, it's not jealousy, because jealousy could never arise in that situation. If John wants to run game on a weak female who's standing around in a short skirt with no shopping bags and gets excited that someone's finally hitting on her, that's his problem. To be honest with you, if I hadn't met John at work, I would never have paid him any attention. His face might be gorgeous, but I have high standards when I'm out and someone's trying to holler at me. I only became attracted to John after we started talking about our lives, and I understand the way he dresses at work because he has to represent our line. If John was to hit on me outside of work, I would never have given him the time of day because he dressed way too baggy, he's way too short, and he's talking in the fast way that black guys talk when they run game on girls. Of course, those girls were lames. John told one of them to holler at his friend, who was in the store. Instead of telling John to bring his friend out or asking him what his friend looks like or how old he is, she walked right in the store and went up to Terrence and startsed smiling and whatnot when he started asking her questions. Really? Terrence? Weak is all I could say for both of them. Back to what I was saying. It's not jealousy, and I explained this to John. It was the fact that he disrespected me because he had put my job on the line to try to touch and feel, and just because he didn't get what he wanted didn't give him the right to disrespect me in front of my face, knowing that he would piss me off while I was working. It was also disrespect that he was basically categorizing me with those girls, and he said he completely understood and spent the rest of the night rapping. He's so good, and that's coming from someone who hates listening to amateur rappers. Dude needs to quit Ecko and get a full-time job as a freestyler.
- Sunday, August 9th
Worked the afternoon shift and met one of the most handsome Mexican guys ever. He looked completely white. I thought he was English or Scottish or something when I first met him. He has two kids and he's 23, which means he's freaky right? Hope he comes in again lmao. Stayed until 10 to help with floorset. Parents tripped out in the car when I told them I was scheduled to work until 3am the next night. My dad could act like a real sissy bitch sometimes, and it's freaking embarassing. Stop it Dad. You're a grown ass man.
- Monday, August 10th
Went to the optometrist and got glasses and contacts for under $300. What a deal. Didn't stay until 3am at work. Actually only stayed 'til 10:30. Our new guys' stuff is so hot. Less baggy, more fitted. We got V-necks and dark wash jeans that look like Levi's. Get some.
- Tuesday, August 11th
Wasn't scheduled to work, but I went in to help out with the floorset and put up all the new clothes anyways. All nine of us were there to help, which made the task pretty fun. Went to El Torito for Taco Tuesday with Brianna, Eddie, John, Liz, Terrence, and Gary. Their tacos were small but so good; I usually don't eat the shell but I actually did at El Torito. Helped out some more when we got back to the store, but I left around 7 for a small dinner party thing at my house. Some bitch with an unknown number called and said "You're a bitch" and called again and said something with the word "Ugly" in it. She called again at like 2 in the morning. It's gotta be either one of the hos that I have shit with from my past, Mike's dumbass ex-girlfriend, one of my exes' girlfriends, or one of my new guys' girls. Immature shit like that pisses me off. Grow some balls, don't block your number, don't immediately hang up, don't call with someone sitting next to you, and don't call, period. Say it in person.
- Wednesday, August 12th
Found out that Mike is back with Alvin and the Chipmunks or whatever. Pisses me off because when we first started talking, I didn't even want to start having feelings for him because I knew it'd be hard to win over someone who just got out of a 5 year relationship. But of course, he convinced me that he was over her. There were times when we would have a fight and he would seem like he was defending her or he wouldn't want to put our pics up on his Myspace, saying that he was still friends with his ex's friends, which would make me suspect that there was something going on. He always denied everything and said that he didn't even talk to her, and I believed him, but look at this shit now. He said himself that she's my complete opposite, so does that mean I'm the opposite of what he wants? Maybe I was too much for him. He used to always be so jealous and overprotective. With her, he doesn't need to be that way. No one wants her ugly ass except for him. He told me one time that she had sex with a guy to get back at him for cheating on her. I asked him, "Did she show you any proof of that?" He said, "No, she just told me." I said, "You can't believe her unless she shows you pictures. Unless she paid him, no one wants to fuck her except for you." He laughed because he knows it's true. He could have gone for anyone else and it wouldn't have been a thing to me, but for him to go back to her is the biggest diss ever. Props to him for that one. I'm a firm believer in karma, and my first thought was that it was karma for me always having talked to my exes while I was with someone new. With Dave, I was talking to Johnny. With Mike, I was talking to Dave. My payback? Someone I genuinely liked goes back to his ex. But let me salvage the situation and take that as a compliment. He couldn't handle me; if he wants something easy and someone he doesn't have to worry about, she's the one. The only thing I have to say is, bitch better not be the one calling me with the blocked number. Whoever it was woke me up from my nap and hung up after the second ring, then called again while I was at work. Fucking trick. Back to my day. Picked up my glasses, then worked closing. This nerdy-looking guy came in and said he was a promoter for Bone Thugs N Harmony. He pulled out the CD that Layzie Bone and Big Sloan had released the day before and told us to play some tracks off of it. He said he wanted to bring his guys in but that he couldn't do it 'til November 'cause they were going on tour. I suggested that he bring them in next week, but with such short notice, we'll see how that goes. That'd be so tight if they could come in; I love Layzie Bone and Krayzie Bone. It was funny 'cause he found out how old I am and said "Gotta wait 'til February 'til we can fuck with you," as if the moment I turn 18 would be the moment I get Bone Thugs N Harmony's dicks in my face. Then I told him I wanted to be a music video director, and he said I had to wait until I was 18, so I said "How does that have anything to do with it?" and he says "Well, you gotta sign a release form." Does that mean he can put me in videos? I could be one of those video vixen girls and fuck all the black artists and write a book about how they had an affair with me and then makes millions off of it! Definitely need to keep in touch with him. I believe his name is Jackson. Right after he said that, someone called him and he started telling them he was at Ecko with "two beautiful, beautiful girls," and I started questioning whether he was really a promoter because someone who kicks it with a rap group is usually around very beautiful women, so why would he call Brittany and me beautiful? I asked him to show me pictures, and he actually did have some of him and Big Sloan and Krayzie Bone, which wasn't fun because I wanted to laugh in his face and call him a loser for posing as a promoter. Interesting people I meet at work. Can't wait to see who else I might meet. How about my soulmate, or at least someone rich and gorgeous and has a nice car and loves to travel and wants to take me everywhere and doesn't talk about shit I don't care about and doesn't like his ex-girlfriends and wants to buy me Gucci handbags once in a while? Thanks, I'd appreciate that.
- Sunday, July 19th
Worked from 2 to 6. Met John, the "really good-looking guy" Terrence was telling me about my first day on the job. He looks almost exactly like J. Holiday, but he's convinced me into thinking that he's even cuter than J. Holiday. I don't know what it is that attracts me to him so much. I don't think the 74 girls he's fucked and every other girl he's ever been able to lay game on know what it is that makes him so attractive either. His green eyes are a given, but still, he's nowhere close to my type. He's 5'6, skinny, and has braids... completely opposite from my preference of 5'10 to 6', built, and buzzed. Got off at 7 and went over to my cousin's house, where my sister, Amy, Kathleen, Katie, and Christy all were. John called and told me to come over to his place for a barbecue he was having later on that night, and Amy and my sister wanted to go since there were black guys there. Little did we know that John's phone was fucked up and he couldn't receive calls, so he didn't know that we called him to get the directions. We ended up going to Guppy's to get popcorn chicken instead. We were at the counter making our order and checking out the fine ass black waiter when Amy tells me that one of my exes, Johnny, was standing outside. I didn't see him because she said he was right outside the door, so I looked at the people standing right near the door, but he was actually behind all those people. We got our food and were leaving when I decided to go back and ask him about my iPod, which he originally broke and supposedly bought a new one but never gave it to me. The first thing he said when I walked up to him was "Don't make a scene," as if he already expected me to come up to him all this time. The first thing that ran through my mind when I saw him for the first time in two years? Damn the nigga is ugly! Wtf happened to him? Red fauxhawk with a red tail? And as if he wasn't already skinny enough two years ago, he got even skinnier to the point that his teeth jump out from his sucked-in face. I even asked Mimi later, "Was he that ugly when I was dating him?" and she said "No, because I thought he was okay and we had the same taste back then." I know I'm digressing, but I've noticed that guys I date always get really ugly after we break up. Alamitos and Rancho people, remember Ali Ytares? He used to get girls and be all cleaned up... then at Rancho his hair grew and looked all nappy and he walked around in sweats all day. Tony, granted he was already pretty ugly, got even uglier after we broke up with his faggotass hairdos. Johnny, no further explanation needed here. Anyways, back to the story. I actually didn't make a scene, which surprised Amy and Mimi. "You know, I actually thought you were gonna make a scene." Since when did I become a drama queen? Lmao. I only wanted to make a scene to get the black waiter and the Filipino guys' attention. I can tell Johnny was afraid I'd say shit he didn't want me to say in front of his girlfriend, so he was like "I'll give it to you" blah blah blah, but of course, he hasn't yet. Same shit, different toilet every time with him. I could have let his girlfriend know that according to him, she's boring in bed, but a packed Guppy's wasn't really the time and place for that. Went back to Amy's house, where we were talking about her problems with this Ryan guy she likes. Funny incident that I wanna blog about so I can laugh about it when I read this years from now. She was anxious that Ryan hadn't texted her all day because she assumed that he was out fucking his ex-girlfriend. While we were talking, Mimi started playing with Amy's phone, then gave it back to her. Out of nowhere, Amy's phone received a text, and Amy literally jumped out of her seat and said "Omg, he just texted me!" Sad... I know. She started reading it and it said "I love you" and then Mimi started laughing really hard because she had changed her name to Ryan Matthews in Amy's phonebook. We realized what happened and couldn't stop laughing for the longest time. Good night for us, bad night for Amy, long single-day blog for me.
- Monday, July 20th
Asian Mall, went to eat with family, chilled at Kathleen's.
- Tuesday, July 21st
Got macaroni balls at Cheesecake Factory with Stephan, the manager of the place where Ronald works. He's so nice and was talking about all these places he wanted to take me to eat at, which was really tempting for my fat ass, but I didn't want to lead him on. Even though he has money, I can't date someone who's not my type unless he was rich to the point that he's dropping money to buy things for me, not just take me out. Worked closing shift. A 29 year old Sri Lankan guy wanted to take me out on a date because he thought I was 22, but thankfully, I'm only a minor. Being 17 sucks in the sense that I can't go clubbing and I scare off older guys, but when it comes to people like that Sri Lankan dude, 17's the perfect age.
- Wednesday, July 22nd
Woke up early to go to L.A. Went to Chinatown, one of my most favorite places to go. Yeah, it's smelly and dirty and has perverts and grumpy Chinese people, but aside from those downfalls, it's fun for someone who loves buying random things. I was in such a good mood that I walked into a restaurant and said "Hello" out of nowhere, and the old people in there actually said "Hi" back! It was so cute, and when I was walking, a lady was about to get in her car and I was about to cross her path, so I stopped and let her go first. She was like, "No, you go" and I was like, "No, you can go" and she said "Oh, thank you honey! Thank you!" People like that make my freaking week. How many times have you met someone who was that thankful for something so minor? Off to USC we went, or so we thought. Amy got off the wrong exit, so I ran into a Goodwill to get directions. I asked the cashier, then three random people jumped in to help me. They all worked together and gave me the right directions, which made my freaking week too. USC was super nice at first, but then I came to despise it when it got really hot and the last thing I wanted to do was see one meaningless building after the next. Unless it had A/C, I did not want to see any more meaningless buildings whatsoever. There were people from the Bay Area, Chicago, and St. Louis on the same tour with us. I can't believe I'm competing against crazy people who are willing to travel hundreds and thousands of miles to see a college for an hour.
- Friday, July 24th
Got Thai food and went shopping. John was working; I couldn't keep my eyes off his eyes, he said he couldn't keep his eyes off my lips. A black guy saying I have nice lips? I'm gonna remember that compliment forever. I was planning to sleep early when I got home, but John called to tell me about how our boss, Eddie, had pulled him and Terrence aside to have a talk with them. Basically, he told them not to go any farther than just being friends with me because I was 17 and still underage and they could get into serious shit if they did. I didn't understand why he would tell them that and why he would single me out, considering there's another cute 17 year old girl who works there as well. Barely a week at work, and I already have the boss keeping a watchful eye on me.
- Saturday, July 25th
Worked morning shift. I was alone in the store when this tall, cute guy walked in, went right past me without acknowledging me, and grabbed a polo and went to the register. Usually people walk in really slowly and give me a chance to talk to them, but he made a beeline past me, which I especially wasn't used to since he was a guy. I still thought he was hot, so I went in the back and told Brittany to come out to check him out. She nodded in approval, and I was just talking to him when I blurted out "You're cute" out of nowhere. I don't even know where my balls came from, but luckily he asked for my number or else I would've felt like an idiot. I was off at 3 and went to Pasta Bravo with John. We kicked it for a couple hours before it was his time to work, then I did some shopping before going for Thai food and more shopping when my mom got home.
- Sunday, July 26th
Morning shift again. The only thing that made waking up at 7:30 worth it was that my third customers for the day was a black girl and black guy. He was getting a shirt and took off the one he was wearing to try it on, and damn, he had such a nice body. I was afraid to look though because I thought the girl was his girlfriend and I didn't want a black girl coming after me. They were in such a rush that I asked them why they had to hurry for. The girl, who seemed pretty innocent because I suggested a revealing top but she chose a T-shirt that covered up everything, said she had to get to an awards thing in Hollywood later that night. I said "Oh, are you a celebrity or something?" and she started blushing and giggling and whispered "It's a porn thing." I was like "...What?" and she said "It's kind of like AVN, but for black people," so I asked her what she was nominated for, and she said "Best Group Sex." I was about to say "What... the... fuck..." but I acted all cool 'cause I didn't wanna come off as the Asian girl who's too prude to engage in group sex, so I said "Oh foreal? How many people?" and she said "Three girls, two guys" so I said "Why's it gotta be more girls than guys all the time?" and she laughed and said "I know right? That's what I said too." I asked if the guy she was with was part of it, but she said he was just her date to the awards. Damn it, I should've stared at his body more. Lol! She started trusting me so much that she started talking about how she had to shoot a crazy scene the day before and that some people had some disgusting fetishes. I said "You mean bondage and stuff?" and she said "No, like farting and stuff. I had to sit and fart on girls' faces and they would do the same to me" and I asked how she was able to fart so much and she said "Well, they pump up our asses with air." Lmao... don't ask. Went to a barbecue at my cousin's house after work. I was telling my aunt and sister the story, except I said "So I say 'Are you a celebrity or something?' and she goes 'Girl, you don't know who I am? I'm Ashanti!'" and my aunt and sister's jaws dropped, and when I was telling my cousin the story, I said it was Janet Jackson, and she started freaking out. Really guys? Ashanti and Janet Jackson at the Block? Knee-slapper.
- Monday, July 27th
I was being a stalker and checking Mike's myspace when I noticed that he changed his status from In A Relationship to Married. Immediately suspected that he was back with Alvin and the Chipmunks. Just wanted to mention that since it'll be relevant later. Went to the DMV in Santa Ana but didn't accomplish anything. Arrived early for the mandatory meeting at work and chilled with John and Terrence for a bit. The meeting began at 9:30 and didn't end until 12:38am. We did a role-playing thing to see how easy it was for people to steal from us. Even with two of the managers closely watching me, I was able to slip a shirt under my top. If I could do it, anyone could have done it.
- Tuesday, July 28th
Volunteered at Quakers for a few hours in the morning. Mark, the guy that asked for my number on Saturday, was lagging on taking me out, so I stuck around for a game of History Bingo with the Alzheimer's patients. When I left, one of the ladies I was helping called me over to give me a hug. So cute right? Mark scooped me up later on in the afternoon and we were cruising around, not knowing where to go. He took me to some random place in Newport Beach and we walked along the path lined by pretty beach houses. People piss me off though; when we first kissed, some white preppy bitches on bikes rang a bell and laughed, and the second time we kissed, one of the Asian nerds who were biking by said "Whoa, whoa, getting freaky on the boardwalk!" Dude, get a life and get laid. Have you never seen people kiss before? Completely killed the moment for me, but whatever. Mark's a cool guy and he's chill and he's 6'1 and really good-looking and everything, but I think his cons outweigh his pros. He has a kid and a jealous baby mama, he talks too much about shit I don't care about, he doesn't show more interest when I talk about things in my life, he's cocky, he's one of those rapper guys who claim that people like Hot Dolla likes his shit, he's completely convinced he's gonna get in my pants, and worst of all... he has a shitty car. I could get over every single one of his cons, even that he's one of those rapper dudes, but I can't get over him having a shitty car. Mimi likes to ask who I'm talking to on the phone, and if I say Mark, she'll say "Which one? The one with the shitty car?" He's no longer Tall, Cute Mark. He's Mark With The Shitty Car.
- Wednesday, July 29th
I didn't do shit the entire day and didn't shower until 5:10, thinking that my shift didn't start until 7:30. I got out of the shower at 5:45, and Brittany calls and goes, "You know you're scheduled at 5:30 right?" Turns out I got my schedule mixed up with Sunday. Anyone who knows me knows I take forever and a day to get ready, so I told her the earliest I could be there was 6:45. I literally did half my makeup in the car and got to work at 6:15. Amazing? I would call it so.
- Friday, July 31st
Got Thai food again, went shopping, got a cute black dress that I love, stopped by Huntington Beach, and got Yogurtland.
- Saturday, August 1st
Busy day at work. The cutest little boy ever wanted to give me a kiss on the cheek. I can still remember his smile now; he's so cute! He didn't even want to leave. If I could get away with kidnapping, he'd be my pick. Thai food and Anaheim Plaza afterwards.
- Sunday, August 2nd
Katie's birthday dinner at Favori. Only thing good at the so-called "Best Vietnamese Restaurant in Orange County" according to the Orange County Register was their eggrolls. Almost a $400 tab, but my parents' fried rice > Favori's fried rice any day. I bet the person who wrote that review is screwing the restaurant owner.
- Monday, August 3rd
Doctor's, pharmacy, Thai food for the third day in a row, Kathleen's house, watched a horny Mexican couple maul each other outside the girl's house, Costco.
- Tuesday, August 4th
Worked a dead closing shift. Didn't even make $900.
- Wednesday, August 5th
Katie's house for her birthday barbecue. Her mom gave me two boxes of fake eyelashes, which in Vietnam is 20 pairs for $4, so each pair is $.20. Here in Orange County, I buy a pair for $2.79. I go all the way to Chinatown to get them for $1.00 or $1.50. If you are reading this and you're going to Vietnam anytime soon, let me know so I can give you money to buy me boxes of things from there. Thanks.
- Thursday, August 6th
Another mandatory meeting at work. It was supposed to only be 30 minutes long so we could have time to go bowling, but we didn't get out until 10:45. When we got to The Concourse, we went inside and were standing in front of the counter trying to decide which of the managers was going to pay for all of us. The very fat, tall, white guy working there goes "We're not giving out anymore lanes." We were kind of offended because we hadn't even said anything. For all he knows, we could have been there for the bar, but we went outside anyways. Two minutes later, a group with only white and Mexican people go up to the counter, and the dude gives them a lane! We all went back inside, but John walked faster than all of us and went right up to the guy. Immediately the guy tells John to back the fuck off like he wanted to start a fight or something, but John was just asking the guy why he gave them a lane and didn't give us one. He didn't answer John's question but kept telling him to back off before he started something, and I guess the word "Nigger" slipped out of his mouth. John was about to throw a punch but Terrence pulled him back. What would John's fist have hit though? The guy was more than two heads taller than John. No way he could have reached his face, and his fist would have bounced off the guy's stomach. Damn you Terrence. I really wanted to see that punch. We went outside and Eddie arrived right when the fat guy came out and said "Get the fuck out of here. There's a sidewalk over there, you guys can go there, but this is private property so get the fuck off." Eddie asked to speak to the manager, and the fat guy said with a smirk, "Go ahead," not knowing how good Eddie is with words. Eddie got us free games for our next meeting, and the fat guy is at risk for termination. Anyways, we went to Denny's and talked for the longest time. I didn't get back until 1:15am, and yes, my mom was pissed.
- Friday, August 7th
Fucking Twitter was fucked up at this time and deleted my updates for the day. I had to think so hard just to remember what I did. Mark picked me up to kick it for a bit. We stopped by his friend's house, then I said I was thirsty, so he took me to a liquor and got me Arizona. Really? When I say I'm thirsty, I'm used to guys taking me to Starbucks or Jamba Juice or BJ's or Cheesecake Factory so I can get my damn Coffee Frappacino or Caribbean Passion or Strawberry Lemonade. Arizona...? And it didn't even have my flavor? Another con for you, buddy. Then he took me back to his house, completely expecting to get in my pants, but I told him I wasn't going in and made him chill in the car. I just hate how he's so cocky and sure he's gonna get some. He tells me I'm different and that he's really feeling me in a way he's not feeling his other girls, yet he treats me like I'm one of them. When we first started texting each other after we met, he was concerned about me being underage and said he didn't wanna risk getting in trouble. I said, "You can't get in trouble unless we actually have intercourse" and he said "Who says we're not gonna get that far?" and I said "I did..." and he's all "Well, I say we will get that far, and whenever I say that, it happens." When we first talked on the phone, I was talking about how random it was that I told him he was cute, and he goes, "You thought about sexing me, didn't you?" Umm, yeah. Because whenever I lay my eyes on someone cute, the first thing that pops in my head is the image of us buck naked and humping on a kitchen counter. Right. Makes me more determined to never let him get any. Worked the afternoon shift, then went shopping with Mimi and Kathleen.
- Saturday, August 8th
I was working close and got to work a little earlier than usual, so I went to the back and was sitting at the desk when John came in. He kept going into the men's stockroom, which is a room adjacent to the back that has no cameras. I thought I heard him call my name, but I wasn't sure, so I stayed where I was. He poked his head out and said he needed me in the stockroom, so as I was walking in, he pulled me and started kissing me. We've never kissed before, and I'll admit he's a really good kisser, but we were at work and Terrence and Janae were still in the front. I was paranoid that Terrence would walk in, so I pulled away, but he pulled me back and kept kissing me, saying "Relax. There's no cameras here." I finally got away and went back to the desk, and John came and stood over me with his back to the camera. While he was on the phone with his baby mama, he reached in and touched my inner thigh. I was so pissed because for one thing, my ass is on the line while his isn't. He's leaving at the end of August to go back to North Carolina to take care of his daughter. I'm staying, I'm the newest employee there, I'm technically a seasonal, the managers still have to decide if they wanna keep me as a permanent, and Eddie's already on my ass because he thinks the guys wanna get with me. I went out front to work and John was supposed to go home, but he decided to stay and close even though he wouldn't get paid. I don't know why he did it; supposedly Terrence dared him to do it, but John went up to these three girls standing outside and started running his game on them. They completely fell for it; one of them wanted him, but he was trying to get her friend's number, so she was all "Yeah, I'm making sure she calls you." I started giving him an attitude, and of course John and Terrence took my attitude as a sign of jealousy. No, it's not jealousy, because jealousy could never arise in that situation. If John wants to run game on a weak female who's standing around in a short skirt with no shopping bags and gets excited that someone's finally hitting on her, that's his problem. To be honest with you, if I hadn't met John at work, I would never have paid him any attention. His face might be gorgeous, but I have high standards when I'm out and someone's trying to holler at me. I only became attracted to John after we started talking about our lives, and I understand the way he dresses at work because he has to represent our line. If John was to hit on me outside of work, I would never have given him the time of day because he dressed way too baggy, he's way too short, and he's talking in the fast way that black guys talk when they run game on girls. Of course, those girls were lames. John told one of them to holler at his friend, who was in the store. Instead of telling John to bring his friend out or asking him what his friend looks like or how old he is, she walked right in the store and went up to Terrence and startsed smiling and whatnot when he started asking her questions. Really? Terrence? Weak is all I could say for both of them. Back to what I was saying. It's not jealousy, and I explained this to John. It was the fact that he disrespected me because he had put my job on the line to try to touch and feel, and just because he didn't get what he wanted didn't give him the right to disrespect me in front of my face, knowing that he would piss me off while I was working. It was also disrespect that he was basically categorizing me with those girls, and he said he completely understood and spent the rest of the night rapping. He's so good, and that's coming from someone who hates listening to amateur rappers. Dude needs to quit Ecko and get a full-time job as a freestyler.
- Sunday, August 9th
Worked the afternoon shift and met one of the most handsome Mexican guys ever. He looked completely white. I thought he was English or Scottish or something when I first met him. He has two kids and he's 23, which means he's freaky right? Hope he comes in again lmao. Stayed until 10 to help with floorset. Parents tripped out in the car when I told them I was scheduled to work until 3am the next night. My dad could act like a real sissy bitch sometimes, and it's freaking embarassing. Stop it Dad. You're a grown ass man.
- Monday, August 10th
Went to the optometrist and got glasses and contacts for under $300. What a deal. Didn't stay until 3am at work. Actually only stayed 'til 10:30. Our new guys' stuff is so hot. Less baggy, more fitted. We got V-necks and dark wash jeans that look like Levi's. Get some.
- Tuesday, August 11th
Wasn't scheduled to work, but I went in to help out with the floorset and put up all the new clothes anyways. All nine of us were there to help, which made the task pretty fun. Went to El Torito for Taco Tuesday with Brianna, Eddie, John, Liz, Terrence, and Gary. Their tacos were small but so good; I usually don't eat the shell but I actually did at El Torito. Helped out some more when we got back to the store, but I left around 7 for a small dinner party thing at my house. Some bitch with an unknown number called and said "You're a bitch" and called again and said something with the word "Ugly" in it. She called again at like 2 in the morning. It's gotta be either one of the hos that I have shit with from my past, Mike's dumbass ex-girlfriend, one of my exes' girlfriends, or one of my new guys' girls. Immature shit like that pisses me off. Grow some balls, don't block your number, don't immediately hang up, don't call with someone sitting next to you, and don't call, period. Say it in person.
- Wednesday, August 12th
Found out that Mike is back with Alvin and the Chipmunks or whatever. Pisses me off because when we first started talking, I didn't even want to start having feelings for him because I knew it'd be hard to win over someone who just got out of a 5 year relationship. But of course, he convinced me that he was over her. There were times when we would have a fight and he would seem like he was defending her or he wouldn't want to put our pics up on his Myspace, saying that he was still friends with his ex's friends, which would make me suspect that there was something going on. He always denied everything and said that he didn't even talk to her, and I believed him, but look at this shit now. He said himself that she's my complete opposite, so does that mean I'm the opposite of what he wants? Maybe I was too much for him. He used to always be so jealous and overprotective. With her, he doesn't need to be that way. No one wants her ugly ass except for him. He told me one time that she had sex with a guy to get back at him for cheating on her. I asked him, "Did she show you any proof of that?" He said, "No, she just told me." I said, "You can't believe her unless she shows you pictures. Unless she paid him, no one wants to fuck her except for you." He laughed because he knows it's true. He could have gone for anyone else and it wouldn't have been a thing to me, but for him to go back to her is the biggest diss ever. Props to him for that one. I'm a firm believer in karma, and my first thought was that it was karma for me always having talked to my exes while I was with someone new. With Dave, I was talking to Johnny. With Mike, I was talking to Dave. My payback? Someone I genuinely liked goes back to his ex. But let me salvage the situation and take that as a compliment. He couldn't handle me; if he wants something easy and someone he doesn't have to worry about, she's the one. The only thing I have to say is, bitch better not be the one calling me with the blocked number. Whoever it was woke me up from my nap and hung up after the second ring, then called again while I was at work. Fucking trick. Back to my day. Picked up my glasses, then worked closing. This nerdy-looking guy came in and said he was a promoter for Bone Thugs N Harmony. He pulled out the CD that Layzie Bone and Big Sloan had released the day before and told us to play some tracks off of it. He said he wanted to bring his guys in but that he couldn't do it 'til November 'cause they were going on tour. I suggested that he bring them in next week, but with such short notice, we'll see how that goes. That'd be so tight if they could come in; I love Layzie Bone and Krayzie Bone. It was funny 'cause he found out how old I am and said "Gotta wait 'til February 'til we can fuck with you," as if the moment I turn 18 would be the moment I get Bone Thugs N Harmony's dicks in my face. Then I told him I wanted to be a music video director, and he said I had to wait until I was 18, so I said "How does that have anything to do with it?" and he says "Well, you gotta sign a release form." Does that mean he can put me in videos? I could be one of those video vixen girls and fuck all the black artists and write a book about how they had an affair with me and then makes millions off of it! Definitely need to keep in touch with him. I believe his name is Jackson. Right after he said that, someone called him and he started telling them he was at Ecko with "two beautiful, beautiful girls," and I started questioning whether he was really a promoter because someone who kicks it with a rap group is usually around very beautiful women, so why would he call Brittany and me beautiful? I asked him to show me pictures, and he actually did have some of him and Big Sloan and Krayzie Bone, which wasn't fun because I wanted to laugh in his face and call him a loser for posing as a promoter. Interesting people I meet at work. Can't wait to see who else I might meet. How about my soulmate, or at least someone rich and gorgeous and has a nice car and loves to travel and wants to take me everywhere and doesn't talk about shit I don't care about and doesn't like his ex-girlfriends and wants to buy me Gucci handbags once in a while? Thanks, I'd appreciate that.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
