Boys

I think it's funny the way guys function. They really do always think with their dick first. I remember part of the reason why I broke up with Dave was because he had all these half-naked girls around all the time since he did car shows and whatever. After we broke up he started f'ing these two easy chicks and now he's all contacting me again. With Mark, he decided to go with the other girl because she spread her legs for him and ended up getting pregnant. He was all happy that he was getting laid, but now he's been constantly calling and texting me saying that he thinks he made the wrong decision and that he wished things were opposite of the way they are now. He used to never call before, but now he's even calling me from his work and everything. I think all of this proves that guys really don't know what they want even though they think they do. They got a good person there for them but they'll always take the easy route before realizing the more difficult route was the better one to begin with. Honestly, I do the same thing. I've been thinking about things so much lately and I came to the realization that I really take people for granted. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find exactly what I'm looking for. I think I've raised my standards way too high to the point that anyone who should typically be relationship material in my book instead becomes a meaningless hookup. My self-confidence is on the rise though. I feel so free to do whatever I want, but I definitely do miss having someone to talk to and spend my free time with. I can't stand this song because my sister overplays it, but Tierra Mari - Hunt 4 You definitely got my feelings on point.

- Monday
Worked with Terrence.

- Tuesday
Knocked the fuck out instead of going in for floorset.

- Wednesday
Busy, busy day for me. Rushed straight to work after school to help out with floorset for a few hours. New collection looks hot. I love the winter jacket and long-sleeve dress. Good thing about them were that they were a lot more expensive than the other things in the store, which means not a lot of people will buy them and I can be unique. I swear Brittany and I are the only ones who ever buy the more expensive clothes that come into the store. Went straight to Rancho again after floorset for the NHS Induction Ceremony. Rainy days are not cute at all.

- Friday
Didn't go to homecoming. Went to Cerritos for Wingstop with Amy, Katie, and Tam instead. Fries and ranch there are so bomb! Cute ass Jay Sean lookalike there made Wingstop that much better. There was a guy who was hella checking me out and not even trying to be subtle with it that I completely ignored because he looked like my ex Johnny. Haaa not cute at all. Definitely not going down that route again, so that was unfortunate for him. Freaking Katie was like "So is it completely over with T.I.? Like over over?" When I said yes she said "Aw, he was really cute too." Gee, thanks Katie. That really helps. Rushed to Regals to watch Stepfather. Lame and corny, don't waste your money on it. Snuck into Paranormal Activity for the second half. Amy's such a pussy. I think she had her hands over her eyes longer than it took her to drive from Cerritos back to Garden Grove. I found everyone's screams to be funny since I had already seen it. Katie and Amy were scared shitless afterwards. If there were no boring midday scenes and only freaky night scenes, I would totally watch that movie again and again. Went back to Katie's house for a bit then to my house. It was only 12 something in the morning and I knocked out on Amy. Sleep deprivation from the weekdays f'd me up.

- Saturday
Slept 'til 5. Worked closing shift with Terrence and hit $5,000. Terrence was saying that he thought I had a crush on him. Lol, I was in disbelief that someone could be that confident in themselves. I've been there since July. Trust, if I wanted him, he would've known and you guys would've known too. He really thought I liked him and I didn't know what to say that wouldn't hurt his feelings, so I just rolled with "I like 5'10 and up, sorry" knowing full well Terrence is like six inches shorter than my requirement. He said "I still could've gotten you, it would've just taken time." I told him it'd take years and left it at that. Amy and Frank came in. Amy missed me that much. Yeah, we really need boyfriends.

- Sunday
Dropped my laptop off at Amy's, then went to work at 5, which was earlier than I was supposed to because Brianna went on her break and never came back or called the store to let the girls working know what was going on. We were all worried thinking she got kidnapped or something but she called five hours later to say that she left because her mom and aunt got in an argument. Who does that? No one. There's gotta be something more to the story. This cute black guy was telling me I was sexy and I was so gonna hit on him when these six Mexican guys started hitting on me instead. What the hell! Cockblockers! I'm sad now. It's okay though, I'm #1 for the week again. Too bad I didn't get any hmwk done though. Fuck meee. Speaking of fuck me, I remember Amy's conversation with her boy Ryan. It went a little something like this.

Ryan: I like girls that can ride.
Amy: Oh... sorry.

I got one word. Sad. LOL.

Paranormal Activity

- Yesterday
Had a good work day. Angels beat Red Sox! They're currently up 2-0 in the ALDS. Saw the people Terrence and Eddie have been interviewing. Oh em effing gee is all I have to say. What happened to their standards!?!? Our current associates are all good-looking and outgoing. None of the girls I've met are even the least bit cute or have somewhat of a personality. Whatever, they'll just make me look even better. There's this guy I met last Friday who asked for my number and I was too nice to say no so I gave him the store number thinking he'd get the hint. He actually called the store so many times over the week that my boss told me to tell the person who kept calling me to stop. He came in and I freaking accidentally told him I got off at 9. At exactly 9 he waited outside the store with two of his friends and it was so awkward because I stalled inside the store for 30mins and my boss and coworker were all looking at him and laughing. Finally I went outside and just said that I got back with my psycho ex on Wednesday and that if I gave him my number he'd die. I don't think he believed it though but whatever. I need a big crazy boyfriend now so I can just tell the guys who hit on me that and not have to worry about getting caught up in my lie. See Kelly? Don't worry about your situation because if what that guy said was true, I'd be able to request a restraining order on that one stalker guy. I'm loving my job but it's making me fall so far behind in school right now. Told myself I'd study for the SATs but I was so tired that I knocked out in my Ecko dress, makeup, curly hair, hoop earrings and bracelets, and contacts. I hadn't even eaten anything all day besides Ramen at 6:30am and a few scoops of ice cream at lunch, but I just went to sleep and didn't eat the McDonalds meal I bought. I'm a failure, I know.

- Today
SATs was ridiculous. I don't understand why Rancho had to check admission tickets one by one. It wasn't so bad though, except I had four math sections and math's my worst subject. Went home, freshened up, then met Chris at the Block. I like how my dad saw him walking up to me but didn't even trip 'cause Chris is black. If he had been Asian, I wouldn't have fingers to type this right now. We went to watch Paranormal Activity. It wasn't that scary for me because the scariest parts were on the trailer and I knew ahead of time that it wasn't real. If I hadn't known all that I would've definitely been scared shitless. The last part was really scary though. I think when I'm up alone late at night and hear the smallest noises I'll get freaked out though. Chris thought it was real and his heart was beating hella fast. Pansy. Stopped by my work afterwards and Brittany told me that she was at a Long Beach gas station yesterday with no makeup, baggy sweats, and long t-shirt on and when she was getting into her car a black guy opened her door and tried to pull her out. She was holding on to her steering wheel and she screamed at the Asian cashier man to help her but he looked away, so she bit the black guy and he let go and called her a fucking bitch and it was weird 'cause I totally pictured an old ugly dude but she said the guy that tried to kidnap her was good-looking and in his 20s. Freaking crazy! If he's cute and wants to get it on that badly he could've just called me up. Jk. Went to eat Thai food in Anaheim and stopped by Katie's house. Her sister's boyfriend was telling my dad that I deserved a Beemer because I'm pretty and smart but haaa, I'll keep dreaming on. All-nighter now. Morning shift tomorrow. Fuck my life once again.

Twitter

Daaang haven't blogged in so long! Not like that's anything new. I'll try to go back and update whenever I'm not too lazy, but basically I've been really occupied with school and work. College applications are about to be thrown in the mix too. I keep up with my Twitter though, so let's stick with that for now.

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Swamped

I. Am. So. Tired. I was supposed to take my daily nap but didn't because Terrence needed me to come in and close with him. I met this man who I seriously thought was gay, but he had a decent looking Asian girlfriend that he met on eHarmony. How weird! I really wanna try eHarmony just because I'm so sure that I won't be able to find someone and I can tell the whole world dating sites don't really work. I don't think the best dating site in the whole world could help me out. The amazing guys, the ones who can stimulate my mind and keep my interest, are unavailable, so there's really no hope out there. Mimi asked me the other day if I still missed ****. I said yes, and she was really surprised because I haven't mentioned him at all for the last couple months. I compare a lot of guys I meet to him and realize that I shouldn't have taken things for granted. Anyways. Moving on. It was so dead tonight. There was a point where our goal was $1,440 and we had $1,424 in. All we needed was $16 to make plan, but we were freaking out because no one was coming into the store at all. Luckily a guy came in and got a $40 jacket right before we closed the doors, so we made plan and LY after all. I have a bunch of homework to get to. If I didn't love my coworkers and what I do so much, I definitely would have quit a long time ago because my mind and body just aren't cut out for this schedule.

Sleep Deprived

Promised my parents I'd actually wake up early to go eat with them, so I was up at 8 on a Sunday that I had off. Went to Fry's after breakfast and was on our way to whatever our next destination was going to be when Brianna called and asked me to cover for her since she had had a rough night. Luckily I had decided to throw on an Ecko tank in the morning or else I would've had to go all the way home to change and then go all the way back to my work. I was glad to trade shifts since I didn't want to close tomorrow, but what sucked was that I had left all my homework for today since I wasn't scheduled to work yesterday or today. Super busy for the majority of the time. I love working with Brittany, Davina, and Liz. We have so much fun and make hella bank whenever we're together. We've made plan and LY, beaten our forecast for the week, and had over $50 DPTs both yesterday and today. That's crazy good, especially considering that Eddie and Terrence had the whole weekend off. Don't know if I blogged about it yet, but the man that came in last time asking me to be his girlfriend came in again today. My blood curled when I saw him. It was so weird. He kept asking me if I remembered him and I pretended like I didn't, so he left since there were a lot of people in the store. He came back an hour later when there wasn't a single customer in the store and my managers were in the back and seemed really offended that I didn't remember him. I said that I saw a lot of faces and couldn't remember everyone, even though I'm actually really good with faces. Instead of asking "Will you be my girlfriend?" he basically told me to be 'cause he said "So what do you say? Be my girlfriend." It was so disgusting. Usually I'm really nice and play it off so that their feelings won't get hurt, but it pissed me off that he thought he was so hot and worthy enough of me. It was insulting actually, so I said "Look, this is a retail store. You can't just come in here trying to get my number. I'm trying to sell, not get hit on" so he said "Okay thank you" and walked out. It was creepy 'cause I found out that the reason why he was able to catch me when there was absolutely no one else in the store was because he has been standing outside the entire hour. Ew I'm so disgusted right now. Aside from that the night went well. Hooked Brittany up with this guy who came into the store that she was too shy to hit on. She said she didn't like his mouth, but I said no worries since she won't be able to see his mouth when he's hitting it from the back. She asked me what kind of grades I got, and when I told her I actually did pretty well in school she said she would've never guessed. She refused to believe me when she asked me what rank I was and I said 4th. Apparently I can't be smart with the way I look and talk. Speaking of school, I really really really need to do homework. F it, I'll just wake up at 3am to do it 'cause I can barely even keep my eyes open to finish this blog.

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Swollen Fingers

It's been barely a week of school and I already feel like I've done so much work. My fingers are already swelling up; I even took off my acrylic nails to make my nails shorter because the way I write involved my thumbnail pushing into my finger. It still hurts like a biatch though. Basically getting my education on is all I've been doing. I went to get Thai food the other day and that was basically it until today. Amy was here for a while, and then Terrence called me out of nowhere to come in and close with him even though I wasn't even on-call. When he saw me he stopped and said "Whoa, nice dress buddy. You're gonna get me in trouble." Then he asked me five minutes later if he ever made me feel uncomfortable, which I said no to because he doesn't. He said that Eddie thought I was feeling uncomfortable with Terrence. The thing I dislike about where I work is that people think and talk too much. When I first worked there, they immediately asumed that I was on Terrence's dick and he was trying to holler at me right away, but I understand why they would since we're the only Asians working there. It went beyond that though when he told me that Eddie and Brittany say stuff like "Why does she take a long time to come in when we ask her to, but she'll come in right away whenever Terrence calls her?" Seriously guys? That's the dumbest thing I've ever heard. Sorry I happen to have no makeup on whenever you guys call me and sorry I happen to be ready already whenever Terrence calls me. Pure coincidence and you somehow twist that into me wanting Terrence? Anyways, Mark and his friends came in to visit me. That's pretty much it. Nothing exciting today. Homework time. Guess I'm sleeping at 2 again.

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Irvine Park

Took forever to upload pictures to my Myspace, so I didn't sleep early enough to volunteer in the morning at Quaker Gardens. Mark had been calling me for the past week, telling me that he wanted to see me sometime before I went back to school. He actually came into the store yesterday for a good 20mins with one of his friends and was mad because I didn't say hi to him. I seriously didn't even see him though. Since I was only helping with floorset and wasn't actually on the clock, I wasn't required to pay any attention to the customers, so I guess he got mad because he thought I was ignoring him on purpose. I went to Quaker Gardens to talk to Leeann in person about why I hadn't been there much this summer, and she was really nice about it and said she understood. Mark came to pick me up when I was done, and he wanted to go to the park so we stopped by his house to get a blanket to lay on. I wanted to go to Mile Square Park but he insisted on driving 45 minutes to Irvine Park. It was so nice there. It's an upper class area, so there were big houses and expensive cars all over the place. There was barely anyone at the park when we got there, so we drove around to look at the peacocks, squirrels, lizards, and horses that were in one of the areas at the park. We found some shade to lay under and it was so calming to just talk and relax. Even though there are a lot of things I dislike about Mark, I still enjoy hanging out with him just because he's laidback like I am. I've always wanted to lay out in the park, but no one ever wanted to do that with me. I kept making fun of Mark's situation. It's so easy to laugh at him! But on a serious note, I feel bad for him 'cause I know he's not ready for everything that's in store for him. He didn't even wanna be with that girl, but he had to ask her out since she got pregnant. He keeps telling me how much he likes me and how much he knows he fucked up 'cause I never kiss him back. We were there for a few hours and I didn't want to ever leave because that's the last time I'll be stress-free for a very, very, very long time. After today comes school, loads of homework, endless scholarship and college applications, volunteer hours, and stepping up my game at work. At least it'll all be worth it in the end, right?

Floorset

- Yesterday
Planned to get some rest all day, but my mom came home early so we ended up going to Wal-Mart, the optometrist's office, and then El Torito. We each got five tacos and they were so yummy! My mom actually liked them, which was really out of the ordinary for her 'cause she's super loyal to the place where she always buys her burritos and usually talks down on all Mexican places besides that one. Perfect example of her loyalty: the waitress made us order drinks, so my mom ordered a margarita and made me drink most of it because her favorite margarita is the one she drinks in the Vegas casinos and therefore she can't like the one at El Torito as much as the one at the casinos. That's so weird though that each margarita has 0.5 alcohol. So if I drank two and drove, I'd legally be D.U.I.? I didn't even feel anything. 0.8 is too ridiculous of a limit. Anyways, I had planned to go to the store just to pick up my check, but my boss wanted my help with floorset so I stayed there for almost five hours marking down prices and moving stuff around. I'm really liking the new clothes. There was so much stuff I wanted to buy, like the new miniskirt and jacket and V-neck and men's shorts, but I only had enough money on me to buy a pair of skinny jeans, a tank, and a strapless top. Got home at 11. Looked at pictures. Will upload when I have time.

Sin City

- Saturday
Woke up at 4 freaking am. A couple of my guy cousins and one of my uncles came over to go in our car, and we took off at 6:15. The only time we stopped was at Barstow to get food and Starbucks. Other than that, it was a smooth ride and we got there at 11 something. The check-in line was freaking crazy! It literally extended through 3/4 of the lobby. Luckily my dad was considered a V.I.P. and was able to skip the whole line, so we got into the room and chilled there until Kathleen and her mom and her mom's boyfriend arrived. My sister asked my guy cousins who was the meaner one, and they said me because I always make fun of them. Lol! Wow I didn't know they had a brain to make decisions. When Kathleen got there, Mimi freaking knocked out for like two hours. Who goes to Vegas to sleep?! Finally we went to get something to eat, then chilled on The Strip and went to the mall. There's so many black guys in Vegas! I love it! There were even some really hot ones who checked me out throughout the weekend, which is so unusual to me because black guys around my town never ever look at me. I get scared whenever they look like they're about to approach me though. I've never talked to a hot black stranger before, so I always get really intimidated and avoid all eye contact with them. Anyways, we left the mall to go back to the hotel for dinner at Garden Grill. The hotel's getting hella smart. They used to have Casino Cafe open 24 hours, and we would go there because their food wasn't too expensive. For example, their New York steak would be about $20. Now, they only open Casino Cafe until 2 and moved their menu to Garden Grill, where the food goes for $5 to $10 more. Freaking clever! Dinner was $313. My parents paid. My aunts didn't offer. Nothing new. There was this incident where Mimi and I were standing in the restroom and the cleaning lady was doing something near the mirror and out of nowhere the huge wall mirror literally became unglued and came crashing down on the floor, barely missing everyone by inches. It was so freaking scary. After that, we went back to the room to chill before going to visit Brian, this guy I've known for a while who lives in Vegas. He asked if we wanted to play miniature golf and we stupidly said yes. We sucked so freaking much that I'm surprised Brian even had the patience to continue playing with us. The whole time we were cracking jokes and he'd just stand there and laugh at a few of them, which is something I don't like about him because I know we were being funny as hell and he must not have a very good sense of humor if he didn't find us hilarious. After Brian left, we went out on The Strip again and ended the night with McDonalds. I don't know what it is about that McDonalds that makes it so special. We always chill there when we feel like sitting back and talking. I got super sleepy since I barely slept all day, so we ended the night pretty early and went back to the hotel at 1:30am.

- Yesterday
Woke up at 7 because sleeping doesn't feel right in a city like Vegas. We all went down to Casino Cafe for breakfast and ran into Katie and her family, who ate at the same place but at a separate table. I'd much rather eat with them; they're not freaking cheap like the rest of my aunts. Breakfast was $248, which Kathleen's family paid for. Aunts didn't offer. Nothing new. Mimi, Kathleen, Katie, and I went up to the room, moved to a different floor, and then chilled in there for a couple hours. They were dancing and it was so... not pretty. We went to the mall afterwards, stuffed ourselves with pretzels and strawberry lemonade, then went shopping but didn't find anything we liked. The only thing that we did like though was #2 in Forever 21. There were these four guys working at the registers in F21. #1 was a tall Asian guy who's pretty cute but somehow reminds me of one of my cousins, which is pretty gross. #2 was this half-black, half-Filipino guy who looked just like Tyson Beckford. He was seriously one of the most gorgeous guys any of us had ever seen. #3 was white guy who wasn't my type but was still pretty good-looking. #4 was just... no. Guess which guy we got. Yep, you guessed right. We got #4. Luckily #2 asked #3 to ask #4 to ask us what race we were and was trying to talk to us, but the line was so long that we left and came back. I peeked at him at one point and saw him peeking too and almost fainted because in my mind, Tyson Beckford was looking at me. I wanted to take a picture with him just so everyone could see what someone so gorgeous looked like, but his damn manager was there and he couldn't talk to us. Bad luck follows us man. We stopped by Wynn on our way back to the hotel, then met up with the entire family to eat Thai food at Kung Fu restaurant. Dinner was $212. One of my three cheap aunts paid, which was highly surprising to me. It was 8:30 by the time we finished dinner and I was supposed to hang out with Brian at 8, so we rushed back to the hotel to get ready and met up Brian and his brother Brett at 9:30. The night before, they were in their work uniforms and didn't look too cute. This time, both were wearing fitted jeans and caps and flannels. They looked so freaking good! Can't believe we didn't take any pictures that night, but I do have some videos I recorded of them. Brian took us to Town Square, which is an outdoor mall similar to Victoria Gardens about 15 minutes away from The Strip. They had every single store I could possibly think of! Too bad they were closed. I wanted to go sightsee on the main part of The Strip but there was so much traffic that we ended up sightseeing from inside the car, which Kathleen really liked 'cause her strange ass loves traffic. Brian's other brother, Brandon, called and told us to meet him and his girl up for midnight bowling, so we went to the Braza brothers' house to wait for Brandon. Brett showed us some beats he had made and they were actually really good. I always assume people I know who do music suck just because I've met so many guys who thought they were the shit but sucked ass. Brian was supposed to dance for us but he got all shy out of nowhere. I've seen his and Brett's videos before though and they're amazing when it comes to krumping. Gotta ask Brian for them. Their nephew's really influenced by them. He's getting into dancing and can do a lot of moves that he copied from the JabbaWockeez. They're all such a cute and talented family! I wanted to stay at their house forever, but Brandon came so we all headed to The Orleans Hotel for midnight bowling. We were walking to the bowling place and Brandon looked at me, then asked Brian a question in his ear and Brian looked at me and answered "Not yet." I think they were talking about the fact that Brian and I have been attracted to each other for almost a year but we've never even held hands. Since Brian was so shy, I decided to just make the first move and give him a kiss when he got a strike. The guys hella schooled us the first game. By the second game, I was so tired that I was sleeping on Brian's shoulder. I like the way he was really affectionate and kissed my face while I was sleeping, but I kept thinking he was gonna smear my eyebrow lmao! They took us back to the hotel at 3am. My sister owed Brett a kiss on the cheek because he beat her, but he got her to kiss him on the lips somehow. I like that the Braza brothers are attracted to us and we're attracted to them, but we don't like each other that way. They got their other girls, we got our other guys. They're just people we love to hang out with when we're in town. Even though Brian and I acted like we were dating that night and he kept talking about how he's gonna try to come to Cali as soon as he can, I don't feel a connection with him, and I like that. I like that connections are so important to me now. It used to be that I would just date whoever I felt like, but now, I base potential relationships on looks and initial connection. I just realized how important comfort and humor are to me. I can't date someone if I don't feel like our silences are completely awkward-free and if I can't have some good laughs with a guy. Be good-looking and mediocre if you just want a friend in me. Be good-looking and my equal if you want a girlfriend in me.

- Today
We were supposed to leave at 6 but I woke up at 7:10, and I was the first one to wake up too. We left the hotel at 9:30 and stopped in Barstow to get Panda Express. There were so many of us in there! Kathleen and I had to sit down in these empty seats next to the Mexican family that was sitting there, and they were giving us looks like Ey chinita, who the fuck are you to sit down there? But they finally left and then we finally left. Everyone went straight home besides my parents because I made them stop at Ontario Mills for us. Didn't see anything I liked again though. So frustrating! I wanted to spend money. I went into the Ecko there and wow, it's so different from our store. So much bigger and darker and not crammed in and not pleasantful. None of us brought home stuffed animals or bought more clothes and shoes, so our mothers should be proud of us! We usually have bags and bags of stuff to take home, but this time it was just our luggage and duffel bags, which made it so much easier to unpack. Kathleen knocked out at my house, and when she woke up we over to my cousin's house for a barbecue. One of my cheap aunts bought lobster that she claimed was over $100, and the other one bought pho at a 50% off place. Not exactly equal to what the rest of the family paid in Vegas, but at least they paid something. Kathleen's mom was telling me about how the aunts had taken my grandma to Treasure Island to watch the pirate ship show, and when they got there there were so many people that they were standing in the very back and my grandma couldn't see since she's in a wheelchair. They saw security guards telling everyone to back up and they thought that they would get moved even further back, but the security guards had actually been making space in the front for my grandma and family to sit since my grandma's a handicap. Doesn't that just touch your heart? So nice. Went home at 9 and fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

Vegas Bound

Finished Animal Farm today! Weird ass ending. Worked until 10. Met my new associate manager. She's definitely not someone Eddie would typically hire lookswise, but her personality's super chill. Kay, not much to say. Time to go pack. Probably won't be getting much sleep tonight. Still gotta pack and clean a bit. We're leaving a little before 5am, which means I gotta take a nap if possible and wake up at 3am. Sigh, here goes being an insomniac for the weekend.

Senior Year Schedule

Had to wake up at 7:00 with only two hours of sleep to do my registration. Mr. Bui did a really good job giving me the classes I wanted. Amy came over later on in the afternoon to kick it, but stuff happened between her and the guy she's talking to so she's been super emo the whole day. In all the years I've known her, this is pobably the least she has spoken within a span of nine hours. Not something I'm used to at all. I wonder why I don't act like that when I break up with someone. I think I just tend to cope with things on my own rather than show the whole world that I'm sad. The world can't help me; only I and a cute guys who capture my attention can help me get over such situations. Went to Fashion Avenue and then Mainplace Mall. I got these strapless wedges, a dress I really like, and a purse. I'm officially set for Vegas now.

Schedule (Currently lacking a 3rd period):
0) English Literature AP - Hamamoto
1) Physics AP - Greer
2) Environmental Science AP - Durand
4) Calculus BC AP - PhamVu
5) Civics AP - Isselin / Economics Honors - Beglinger

Won't be an easy senior year as I had hoped, especially since I'll have to balance work and even college applications. Good luck to myself.

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Turn-Ons

Today was crazy hot. Woke up, did some reading, showered and went to Kathleen's house, headed to Anaheim for Thai food, then went to the Block to shop since I can't go tomorrow night. Bought jeans and walked around. There were no Asians whatsoever... The only cute guys there were all Mexican. But that's okay since I now have a thing for the ones who are clean-cut, don't look like cholos and actually look like they can speak English fluently, dress nicely, have perfectly-shaped round/oval heads with buzzed hair, and are handsome in a non-Mexican way. There was actually this one gorgeous Mexican guy rocking aviators, but ehe resembled Mark to the point that all I could think of when I looked at him was baby mama drama. Asians and Filipinos, where you guys at? Nothing against my good-looking Hispanics, but they're already taking over So-Cal and just about every public location out there. Don't let them take over the ladies too. Right now they're the only ones I take notice of when I go out. That's pretty weak if you ask me. But enough about that. Turning to a completely different subject now. We sat down to people-watch after we got pretzels. Mimi decided to play a little game where we went around in a circle and said something that turned us on in the opposite sex or something that we look for in a guy. I wrote down the things we said 'cause some of it was so freaking hilarious. Kathleen and her strange ass fetishes. You'll see what I mean when you read what we said.

K: Black (Oh yes)
C: Money (Sufficient amount is a must)
M: Smells good
K: Short hair (A must!)
C: Big penis (Not expected in Asians and Hispanics however)
M: V-neck (Cheap and well-appreciated. All guys, go get one!)
K: Hairless (Upper body wise)
C: Nice shoes (A must! Dunks and Jordans are appreciated)
M: Filipino
K: Slim jeans (Flare or baggy pants not appreciated)
C: Nice eyes
M: Buzz cut
K: Cute ears (Fetish #1)
C: Nice car
M: 5'10" + (Good luck with that if you like Filipinos)
K: Nice feet (Fetish #2)
C: Tattoos on forearm
M: Lip piercing
K: Tattoos on neck (All guys, go get one!)
C: Plump lips
M: Wears plaid
K: Ear piercing
C: Good sex (A must!)
M: Red/green hat (Any color fitted hat appreciated)
K: Non-ashy elbows (Fetish #3)
C: Small butt (A must!)
M: Talented
K: Nice eyebrows (A must!)
C: Fast metabolism
M: Nice abs
K: Been to jail (She wants them to be familiar with the thug life)
C: Ambitious and funny
M: Not a baby daddy (Shouldn't I be the one to say that? -_-)
K: Gives foot massages (Fetish #4)
C: Not a druggy (A must!)
M: Decisive

To be continued.

Westminster Mall

Didn't go to the Angels game with Terrence and his friend after all. Amy came over and we headed to West Mall. Dandy was supposed to come but he turned out to be busy, so we just shopped, pigged out in the food court, and shopped some more. I had so many shoe-gasms today, but I still wasn't able to find the exact kind of shoe I've been searching for all this time. Went to Target to get random stuff, then back to my house where we've been chilling, watching TV, playing random games on my phone the whole night, and showing each other our unique lapdance techniques. Don't ask. Surprisingly we were pretty good, but we definitely need to get a life and do something productive, lmao.

Shopping Day

Took my senior portraits earlier in the afternoon. What the eff, 35 freaking bucks for five damn pictures that don't even look that good? I bought the cheapest package too. People who pay a load of money more to get a bunch of extra shots; I wanna know, are you that ugly that you need that many pictures in order to get a good one? I wanna set up a professional photo shoot with one of those young, amateur professional dudes sometime. I'm so unphotogenic that I need some pro pics man. Anyways, cashed my check, Amy came over, went to pick up Liz, stopped by Staples to get some school supplies, and went to the Block. I was walking by Converse when these four Filipino guys saw us and followed us into the Ecko store, but none of us had the balls to say anything to each other so eventually they left when we gave them no sign that we were feeling them! Lmao, coulda been Mimi's soulmate or something. Bought $75 worth of pants for my dad for only $45 thanks to employee discount, then went to El Torito with the girls and Terrence. Tiny but very yummy tacos. Headed over to Mainplace Mall for some shopping. Bought the one thing I need the least: another freaking dress. We were talking about whether or not Liz would be a good employee at the store I work at, and I was telling her that she would have to do a lot of flirting there. She asked for examples, so I said "That shirt looks really good on you" and Mimi said "That shirt makes your shoulders look really masculine." Amy goes "How about those pants make your penis look big?" Dude, lmfao! Why am I not surprised she said something like that. Baskin Robbins, stopped by Barnes and Noble, dropped Liz off, went to my house to give my dad the stuff, Wal-Mart for Amy to get folders, McDonalds, and now chilling at my house. All of us have such complicated guy situations, lmao. How hard can it possibly be to have a regular relationship with someone? As of now I want an innocent boy who has my best interests at heart. Not someone with a baby mama, not a big-time partier, not a player with multiple girlfriends. Just a nice, handsome, innocent boy with good intentions.

Closing Shift

- Yesterday
Didn't do anything besides work at night. My new heels hurt like a bitch! Nothing really interesting happened; people are pretty tame Sunday nights. $53 DPT. Not bad. Spent the whole night texting Paul 'cause Terrence gave me his number. You'd think that when he gave it to me, he would actually have remembered to mention the fact that Paul has a freaking girlfriend. Paul didn't tell me 'til way later on in the conversation, and it's funny 'cause he said things to me that no guy who "truly cares" about his girl should ever say. And he continued to say things along those lines even after I told him not to be so flirty anymore. Paul's one of those guitar-playing, acoustic-singing Filipino guys. So not my type but so every other Rancho girl's.